Short Hair VS Long Hair

Although I rather to have short hair instead of long hair due to uncomfortableness and troubles it brings to me every morning and from time to time. Yet, I really want to have long hair, eagerly, because I feel really nice when my hair is longer than others. (Er, friends, you can whack me in school if you want to. ONLY FOR FRIENDS!)

But then, when I cut my hair without noticing and informing me that today is the haircut day, the last second, I may willing to cut my hair but the next second, I began to regret why am I cutting my hair that fast. It sounds so contradiction and feels so weird to me. Yet, I'm still happy with it.

Weird, why am I so happy when I was informed to cut my hair? I may don't have any chances to dance and I really don't want to dance in school for this year again, maybe, due to I'm sitting for my SPM this year, 2012, the year predicted as the end of the world. Is that real?

If somebody asks me, don't you miss your hair? My answer surely and definitely will be yes but not miss that much. Everyone wants long in such strict in discipline's school, right? But why? They surely will ask for the answer. Of course, nice answer for them! It is because I will graduate from high school in couple months time. Isn't that true?

No matter what, I'm going to graduate from high school. So, I just have to do my works and responsibilities with full of effort and dedication and then, I'm free from high school life but I will miss the life soon after graduated for sure. And, start my college life? I don't know.

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Youth Camp

From 15th to 18th of December, I went to GCC Youth Camp. It's quite fun too! But the problem is, this camp is a christian youth camp.

So, I have to wake up early in the morning (Every camp do have to wake up early, nothing abnormal.) and we start our devotion, worship and sessions that I'm not used to it because I'm a Buddhist. But I still have fun in these few days at Stella Maris. For sure, I'd learn a lot of things and experience those things that I did not experience before.

For example, I'd learn how to open my heart wide and honestly when making or accepting new friends and facing difficulties. Also, I learned how to communicate in English language well and fluently. Of course, I'd learn some new words that I haven't seen before and I don't understand before.

In this camp, I met a lot of good friends. They are JC, Cindy, Lam, Nia, Josiah, Penny, Catherina and many many more that I cant list it out all! They are good friends like what I mentioned earlier and also a good listener. I knew that we may not meet in the future. Or maybe yes? I don't know, it's controlled by our god/goddess. Or maybe I'll find them out and chat again, I don't know. But, there is 1 thing that I surely know. It is our friendship will last and continue forever!

Though I can't accept that Jesus as my ONLY god after this camp but as a Buddhist, we respect every god that exist in this world. So, He is still one of my god as well. And anyway, being a Buddhist is still what I wanted and chose to be. Through this camp, honestly, it let me know that making and accepting new friends is a super cool thing ever especially when we get crazy and laugh happily together! It's really super fun and supper cool! Though I'm exhausted and feeling tired, because of the activities held for the whole day, and causes me could not join them and having fun with them when they chat and playing card games together at the last night but I'm really quite happy too when I was seeing them playing happily.

Surely, there would be someone that did not know who I am or disliked me, I don't know, but I'm okay with it because nobody was like or disliked completely. But sometimes, I really feel like I'd been like ignored by someone else and no one really do talk or chat with me. And luckily, I still could sleep quietly without anyone noticed in the room (XD). (P/S: Penny saw that always.) But, I still want to thank to Penny, Nia, Lam and a few more for sharing their stories and letting me know that I am able to this and that.

No matter how, I really like this camp VERY VERY VERY MUCH! THANK YOU OC! I'll be participating again if somebody is still organizing it again but please please please, arrange less worship/sessions and more playing time, please!

Advancement is about movement and payment, and 3 NR!
No Reserves!
No Retreat!
No Regret!
And also, E, F, G and Go!
Eliminate!
Focus!
Groak!
(Er, I don't really know what's that but Pr. Selina wrote it like this.) and
Go!

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Happy birthday!!

Happy birthday to you, Crystal!

What a 'unique' birthday I have for this year.

Let's see,

how unique was my birthday this year.

I had celebrated my birthday without my parents

but my aunts and grandma.

I had realized that

how did my grandma sacrifice herself in this house.

I had realized that

my grandma wasn't that strong and healthy

from that beginning.

I had received

a Tiramisu baby cake

and a cup of roasted milk tea

from my aunts.

I had realized that

how cruel the world is.

I had realized that

it is always hard to

want everything goes as what we want.

I felt like I was just like a baby

without knowing any whys and hows

when compared to my grandma.

And, I was like nothing.

Now, I totally found where I should go

And, where should I be.

Be tough!!!!

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†ноІιdаџ†

My holiday was like hell!
Why do I say so?
Everyday
I'll a 'chance' to cry.
And...
Nothing will not happen in my house.

Quarreling, fighting and other problems...
Will always on show in my house...
Within my siblings, my aunts, my parents, my grandma and I.

I really hope that my family were peace and safe enough...
But...
It will help me a lot in the future when I am working in this complicated society.

Wish all the best to my family, friends and me.
^^

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†τђε Đаγ оƒ ѕсђοοІ Ćοпсεяτ†

Time passed so fast....
And now...
My school's annual concert ended...

Whao...

What a tiring concert...

Sleep at 2a.m.
Woke up at 7a.m.

But..
I'm still very happy...
to have a chance to be performed...

I miss that feeling...
A feeling that make me feel proud...
When I finished a performance...

What a "beautiful" day today...
Woke up at 1p.m...
Luckily...
My mother didn't shake me and wake me from the nice dream...
Haha...xD

As fast as lightning...
Dance club finished one performance...
Now..
We are just waiting for the coming 27th of July...
And...
The competition that organized by Penang Dance Association...
on November...

Try my best lo~~
^^

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